okracilantropolishringgirl

ho! for the first time while eating okra, i noticed how wonderful it is to eat the little tops off first! cute yummy little things that come right off by a gentle tug of one's teeth... like... like... little okra tops!

and what is it about cilantro that makes it taste, not like lemons, but like lemon dishwashing liquid? but i think i'm finally getting over that, finally beginning to appreciate the cilantro flavor itself... without thinking that the dishwashing liquid must have fallen into the food.

i didn't know that Saipan was a part of the U.S... well, sort of.

this black nail polish isn't nearly as startling to me as the cornflower blue one was. it's not even weird, really. it's just... black. it would probably be more impressive if my nails were longer. and pointier. or maybe if i was wearing black clothes.
heh. with the cornflower blue, the next morning, after stumbling out of bed and into the bathroom, seeing those blue nails woke me up with a "whoa!"
oh, and picking your nose with bright blue nails is weird, i tell ya.
oi, maybe i shouldn't have written that.
ahem - "carefully cleaning one's nose out" with bright blue nails...

while wearing nail polish, i'm noticing my hands do this annoying thing, as if i'm afraid to touch anything properly, as if i'm afraid that doing so would ruin the polish, ie., "ruin my nails". how... ucky. how not like me.

the other day in the bathroom at work, i was turning and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, and i could just ...see... an earring on my left ear. a ring-sized loop one. then i immediately began thinking, hey, that would look pretty cool...

but, putting a hole (or multiple holes) in my ear(s)...?
i don't know about that.

and now i was just thinking it would be nice to have a hermes-symbol necklace or pin or something...
what is happening to me???? i'm turning into a girl!!
accccckkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!

no. this androgyne's growing up and becoming... dang, what's that word?
curious? exploratory? ermmm. nope. there's another word, dangit.

and someone seems to have just removed a post of theirs. i was reading it on my friends page and then went to open the comment page, but the page was no longer there. well, friend, the post didn't bother me...

nine eleven

2 years ago...

i was out from work on sick leave due to an unpleasant incident which had happened to me on saturday september 8, wherein my jaw had been broken. i was staying with a friend of the family, because after the incident on saturday, i didn't feel safe staying at my home alone overnight, and my mom was currently visiting relatives in Germany.

so, after getting up that morning, i was turning on the radio to hear some music, but instead heard something said about all flights in the U.S. having being grounded. which was... shocking. hard to imagine. hard to envision. i was wondering if i had heard wrong, or what could possibly have happened to cause such a thing.

i asked my friend if he had heard any news yet today. he hadn't, so we turned on the tv... and there it was, images of the planes crashing and the towers smoking...

it was shocking, and i'll admit, exciting... though seeing the first tower collapse, as it collapsed... the death and destruction aspect started to hit me hard...

later in the afternoon, when i was back at my house doing some errands, i remember walking out onto the porch and just... being dazed. sitting down and thinking, what a week... what is the world coming to...