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insomnia
can't sleep
had i known sleep would be so difficult, might have gone to bed earlier. but one never knows. less than 2 hours of dreaming. then awake. with an overactive heartbeat beating. a mind pacing back and forth in its skull. thump. thump. thump. awake. awake. awake. valerian drops seem no help. thump. thump. awake. awake.
3 hours after awakening, i give up. get up, open the curtains. sun shines in. i hang 2 small mirrorballs, the pink glass mobile, and the spiky mobile in the window. pretty brights of light twist and twirl around me. i am awake.
i've joined a local bdsm munch-type group on yahoo. yesterday i signed up for an orientation meeting. perhaps that is the reason. perhaps it was too much sugary food eaten late at night. perhaps the need for some early morning sunshine. i do not feel tired. thump. thump. thump. at least i do not feel tired.
had i known sleep would be so difficult, might have gone to bed earlier. but one never knows. less than 2 hours of dreaming. then awake. with an overactive heartbeat beating. a mind pacing back and forth in its skull. thump. thump. thump. awake. awake. awake. valerian drops seem no help. thump. thump. awake. awake.
3 hours after awakening, i give up. get up, open the curtains. sun shines in. i hang 2 small mirrorballs, the pink glass mobile, and the spiky mobile in the window. pretty brights of light twist and twirl around me. i am awake.
i've joined a local bdsm munch-type group on yahoo. yesterday i signed up for an orientation meeting. perhaps that is the reason. perhaps it was too much sugary food eaten late at night. perhaps the need for some early morning sunshine. i do not feel tired. thump. thump. thump. at least i do not feel tired.