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some days
Some days, doing anything is hard. Listless, tired, lacking energy - mentally and physically. Some days are just like that; I know that other days will be easier.
Plagued by indecisiveness - second and triple-guessing every decision.
Do I really want to go grocery shopping? No, not really. Do I really need to? Well... Maybe not. But it would be good to get some food. I really ought to. But it's already late afternoon. Is there really any point? At this rate it'll be another hour till I'm ready to go. Well hurry up, there's still enough time, so get going already. But what should I wear? Which stores should I go to? Do I really need to go to Rosewood? I guess not. But maybe I should stop by Lowes if I'm going to be out anyway. And maybe Staples. Should I go to Staples or not? Which store should I go to first?
At Lowes, I smelled matches and smoke, but wasn't paying much attention. I thought maybe it was sawdust from lumber having just been cut. One of the employees yelled at someone in the nearby aisle, "What, are you trying to start a fire?!". Huh. I wonder what they were doing. I bought wood putty and key-rings. That went pretty well. It only took me a few minutes to decide which kind of putty to get.
Then I walked back to my car through the rain and sat in it a while, trying to build up enough energy/motivation to start the car.
At Staples: Oh look at all these pretty things. Ah, the mechanical pencils. I'm not getting the kind with a rubber grip anymore as the rubber always deteriorates. The remaining ones aren't pretty and have tiny erasers. Should I get one even though it's not pretty? Maybe I should check online for others when I'm back home. They don't have any envelopes made of recycled paper. Maybe I should check online for that too. They don't even have the furniture markers I was looking for, which I remember seeing somewhere. After finally deciding I don't need any of the other pretty things in the store, I leave empty-handed. And sit in my car another 10 minutes, wondering whether I should really still go grocery shopping or not. Tired and feeling like crying for no reason.
A light headache, maybe, not strong enough to really feel. Not bad enough to take Tylenol. Before leaving the house, I forced myself to eat some chocolate, hoping it might pep me up some. I had no appetite for it. It didn't pep me up. But I made it to the other stores, and I bought groceries. And I came home feeling more energized than when I left.
Plagued by indecisiveness - second and triple-guessing every decision.
Do I really want to go grocery shopping? No, not really. Do I really need to? Well... Maybe not. But it would be good to get some food. I really ought to. But it's already late afternoon. Is there really any point? At this rate it'll be another hour till I'm ready to go. Well hurry up, there's still enough time, so get going already. But what should I wear? Which stores should I go to? Do I really need to go to Rosewood? I guess not. But maybe I should stop by Lowes if I'm going to be out anyway. And maybe Staples. Should I go to Staples or not? Which store should I go to first?
At Lowes, I smelled matches and smoke, but wasn't paying much attention. I thought maybe it was sawdust from lumber having just been cut. One of the employees yelled at someone in the nearby aisle, "What, are you trying to start a fire?!". Huh. I wonder what they were doing. I bought wood putty and key-rings. That went pretty well. It only took me a few minutes to decide which kind of putty to get.
Then I walked back to my car through the rain and sat in it a while, trying to build up enough energy/motivation to start the car.
At Staples: Oh look at all these pretty things. Ah, the mechanical pencils. I'm not getting the kind with a rubber grip anymore as the rubber always deteriorates. The remaining ones aren't pretty and have tiny erasers. Should I get one even though it's not pretty? Maybe I should check online for others when I'm back home. They don't have any envelopes made of recycled paper. Maybe I should check online for that too. They don't even have the furniture markers I was looking for, which I remember seeing somewhere. After finally deciding I don't need any of the other pretty things in the store, I leave empty-handed. And sit in my car another 10 minutes, wondering whether I should really still go grocery shopping or not. Tired and feeling like crying for no reason.
A light headache, maybe, not strong enough to really feel. Not bad enough to take Tylenol. Before leaving the house, I forced myself to eat some chocolate, hoping it might pep me up some. I had no appetite for it. It didn't pep me up. But I made it to the other stores, and I bought groceries. And I came home feeling more energized than when I left.