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bugblob, tenderness
skipped lj for 2 days due to lack of time, now I'm a few pages behind... and still lacking time.
sort of figured out a mysterious performance problem at work... at least the what, if not the why. who would have expected that reading or writing a 5kb BLOB to the database would take ten times as long as either a 3kb or a 30kb BLOB? seems to be a weird SQL Server bug.
..
seeing men be tender with each other... being gentle and intimate with each other... makes me melt inside. why don't i have the same reaction when females are involved? why?
i don't have much, if any, desire to go to regular bars. but i just
realized that the idea of going to a gay bar sparks my interest.
like, i could do that? yeah, i could do that! but, what would i do
there? i'd feel out of place. like, what would my purpose there be?
what do people go to bars for - to drink alcohol and find people to
have sex with? i don't drink alcohol and am uncomfortable with the
idea of sex. what would i be doing there? i'd just be sitting, watching, thinking, feeling vaguely fine and vaguely uncomfortable,
and like normal, managing to be ignored by everyone else there.
sort of figured out a mysterious performance problem at work... at least the what, if not the why. who would have expected that reading or writing a 5kb BLOB to the database would take ten times as long as either a 3kb or a 30kb BLOB? seems to be a weird SQL Server bug.
..
seeing men be tender with each other... being gentle and intimate with each other... makes me melt inside. why don't i have the same reaction when females are involved? why?
i don't have much, if any, desire to go to regular bars. but i just
realized that the idea of going to a gay bar sparks my interest.
like, i could do that? yeah, i could do that! but, what would i do
there? i'd feel out of place. like, what would my purpose there be?
what do people go to bars for - to drink alcohol and find people to
have sex with? i don't drink alcohol and am uncomfortable with the
idea of sex. what would i be doing there? i'd just be sitting, watching, thinking, feeling vaguely fine and vaguely uncomfortable,
and like normal, managing to be ignored by everyone else there.
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andrewducker
2003-08-21 02:15
You can just meet people in pubs, it doesn't have to be sexual. Or so I hear.
I keep meaning to join some kind of societies/clubs to meet more people.
darkoshi
2003-08-21 17:09
"or so i hear"...? does that mean you don't go to pubs, or that when you go it is generally sexual in nature, or... wait a moment, is that an example of dry british humor?
andrewducker
2003-08-22 01:38
It means I don't go to pubs 99% of the time. Dirty, smelly places full of drunk people that play music I don't like.