My androgyny is more of a non-gendered than bi-gendered thing too. I don't really *feel* !androgyne! inside - I just feel like me, and me doesn't feel like a man or a woman. But for some reason (and there are probably a lot of things that influenced this during my life, including perhaps genetic or developmental reasons), thinking of myself as a woman, or thinking of other people viewing me as a woman, bothers me.
I found your comment about children in that thread amusing. I am uncomfortable around kids too. The younger ones aren't so bad, but I feel awkward around them, like I don't know how I should act, so I tend to ignore them or treat them as adults... and since they aren't used to that from an adult, I think they tend to view me with suspicion. Older kids make me nervous - I think this is a throwback from when I was a kid myself... because even though I don't remember other kids teasing me very often when I was a kid, I still tend to view kids as creatures who are much more adept at being vocal, aggressive, and taunting than me... I've always viewed adults as safer and less threatening than kids.
Part of why I've written these posts, is as part of considering how reasonable those limits of mine really are, and if I could/should someday drop them.
You did give me something to think about, regarding hairlessness, sexlessness, and sexiness. Perhaps someday I will be willing to try the sexy/sexless hairless androgyne look instead of the handsome hairy feminist androgyne look. :)
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Date: 2007-02-19 08:44 pm (UTC)From:I found your comment about children in that thread amusing. I am uncomfortable around kids too. The younger ones aren't so bad, but I feel awkward around them, like I don't know how I should act, so I tend to ignore them or treat them as adults... and since they aren't used to that from an adult, I think they tend to view me with suspicion. Older kids make me nervous - I think this is a throwback from when I was a kid myself... because even though I don't remember other kids teasing me very often when I was a kid, I still tend to view kids as creatures who are much more adept at being vocal, aggressive, and taunting than me... I've always viewed adults as safer and less threatening than kids.
Part of why I've written these posts, is as part of considering how reasonable those limits of mine really are, and if I could/should someday drop them.
You did give me something to think about, regarding hairlessness, sexlessness, and sexiness. Perhaps someday I will be willing to try the sexy/sexless hairless androgyne look instead of the handsome hairy feminist androgyne look. :)