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we survived the remnants of Jeanne here with no damage. it sure seems like tornadoes are attracted to mobile-home parks though, doesn't it?
been thinking it might be nice to get my own place to live. but then Forestfen and I wouldn't be able to share the costs of phone/internet/satellite/etc anymore and we'd both end up having to pay more. I suppose I have enough money to afford it myself, but I'd feel bad for her. Because my salary is a lot more than hers. Hmm. Maybe she'd rent out my room. Actually, she sometimes mentions wanting to move because the neighborhood is bad. (But aren't most neighborhoods bad these days, unless you want to live in some expensive walled-in community?) From all appearances, the people 2 houses over are drug dealers.
It's nice living with her, too, because I don't have the background anxiety of having to worry about keeping my job in order to pay the rent/taxes/bills. Even though I do pay Forestfen rent, I still don't have any real fear that she would kick me out if I couldn't.
But I suppose I should move out somewhen and live on my own? Maybe?
But I wouldn't want to rent, since logically it seems cheaper to buy... so I'd probably end up buying some small cheap house (today I've been thinking about mobile-homes) instead... But then I'd feel so locked down in one place, by owning real-estate. Maybe renting is better, just to avoid that.
And then there's that vague vestigial fear of living alone in a house... left over from 3 years ago when someone broke in and assaulted me here. (another reason we think this is a bad neighborhood... but aren't most, these days?) But I think I could deal with that.
But then I'd be so alone...
Sigh.
The neighborhood kids have taken to hanging out and sitting on the log by the edge of our front yard. It sort of bothers me, like my space is being invaded. Kids make me uneasy... well, adults sitting on the log would make me even more uneasy...
but what can one do? Say "Get off our log. That's our property. Stay away!"? That would be mean... If I was a kid, I wouldn't like an adult getting pissed just because I was hanging out on the edge of their yard. And if we did that, one of them might vandalize our house in retaliation... or shoot us... who knows. Gang-members... a kid was shot not too far from here a couple months ago.
If I could deal well with kids... with people... then I could be friendly with them and talk to them, and maybe then they wouldn't make me uneasy. But gosh, they're scary, kids are. You should hear them yelling and arguing in the streets...
I'm glad I'm not a kid anymore and don't have to deal with other kids like that on a personal basis.
our society has problems. but who's gonna fix them? not me, I'm sure.
been thinking it might be nice to get my own place to live. but then Forestfen and I wouldn't be able to share the costs of phone/internet/satellite/etc anymore and we'd both end up having to pay more. I suppose I have enough money to afford it myself, but I'd feel bad for her. Because my salary is a lot more than hers. Hmm. Maybe she'd rent out my room. Actually, she sometimes mentions wanting to move because the neighborhood is bad. (But aren't most neighborhoods bad these days, unless you want to live in some expensive walled-in community?) From all appearances, the people 2 houses over are drug dealers.
It's nice living with her, too, because I don't have the background anxiety of having to worry about keeping my job in order to pay the rent/taxes/bills. Even though I do pay Forestfen rent, I still don't have any real fear that she would kick me out if I couldn't.
But I suppose I should move out somewhen and live on my own? Maybe?
But I wouldn't want to rent, since logically it seems cheaper to buy... so I'd probably end up buying some small cheap house (today I've been thinking about mobile-homes) instead... But then I'd feel so locked down in one place, by owning real-estate. Maybe renting is better, just to avoid that.
And then there's that vague vestigial fear of living alone in a house... left over from 3 years ago when someone broke in and assaulted me here. (another reason we think this is a bad neighborhood... but aren't most, these days?) But I think I could deal with that.
But then I'd be so alone...
Sigh.
The neighborhood kids have taken to hanging out and sitting on the log by the edge of our front yard. It sort of bothers me, like my space is being invaded. Kids make me uneasy... well, adults sitting on the log would make me even more uneasy...
but what can one do? Say "Get off our log. That's our property. Stay away!"? That would be mean... If I was a kid, I wouldn't like an adult getting pissed just because I was hanging out on the edge of their yard. And if we did that, one of them might vandalize our house in retaliation... or shoot us... who knows. Gang-members... a kid was shot not too far from here a couple months ago.
If I could deal well with kids... with people... then I could be friendly with them and talk to them, and maybe then they wouldn't make me uneasy. But gosh, they're scary, kids are. You should hear them yelling and arguing in the streets...
I'm glad I'm not a kid anymore and don't have to deal with other kids like that on a personal basis.
our society has problems. but who's gonna fix them? not me, I'm sure.
