coping

Sometimes little things keep going wrong, and it starts feeling like a supernatural being is purposefully tormenting me. Whether these things are due to simple bad luck or a mean annoying god, I know that the best way of dealing with them is to simply ignore the cause and to focus on the solutions. But it feels like my brain is being fried. It feels like my brain isn't getting enough oxygen. It feels like I'm trying to swim through molasses. It makes me want to shriek and whine and cry instead of trying to focus on a solution.

I couldn't find an old work email I was searching for, which had notes I needed. I dealt with it.
I was reminded of a deadline for which I need to work on something, which means I won't be able to spend as much time working on the other stuff I need to work on.
I started being assaulted by a low humming noise. It's a generator motor which one of my neighbors sometimes turns on in their back yard. After a while I decided to move my laptop into another room where I wouldn't hear the annoying noise. That is one of the benefits of having a laptop. So I shut the laptop down so that I could unplug it, but instead of turning off, it spent ten minutes configuring updates.

Then I moved it into another room. Then my mouse didn't work. Between the one room and the other, the mouse simply stopped working. I changed the batteries, but it still doesn't work. The LED isn't lighting up anymore. It looks like the lens over the LED may have fallen out, but I'm not sure if there was a lens there to begin with or not. Ok, so I plugged a different mouse in instead. But now this has taken up all of my lunch period without me even having eaten any lunch. And my head still feels frazzled. Maybe if I had more light. It's too cloudy and dark today.