Darkoshi

I have the same problem thinking about the Holocaust - I can start thinking about it, can't stop. Attacks of this can hit me at least once a month on average (going back for more years than I can count). Another more recent problem I had was this story - http://abcnews.go.com/US/best-friends-killers-teens-murder-friend-didnt/story?id=24573749 - got it in my head about mid-last year and could not get it out forever and wound up literally hating almost everyone because of it. I think the pull of such horrific stories is the perhaps not so subconscious idea that all humans are capable of evil and it is only conscious decision making that keeps most of us from becoming the very cretins we most despise and fear. What I can't get past is the fact that there's always, just in looking around at what others are capable of, also probably some damn good reasons to often despise myself.