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I am reading this thread about questions asexuals have for sexual people, because for many of the questions, I too am curious about the answers. One of the questions was, what does an orgasm feel like? One response was that it is something you feel all over, from your head to your toes, and if you are a woman, you can feel your muscles contracting.

This got me to thinking again, about my orgasms. Most of the time, I am of the belief that, yes, I do have orgasms, because I do experience *something* when masturbating, which seems to me must be orgasms. Orgasms are simply different for different people. Yet for me, the sensation is mostly just in my genitals, except for the feeling of relaxation which spreads through my whole body. I do not feel anything other than sudden relaxation throughout my body, and I don't feel my muscles contracting.

So when I read something like the aforementioned comment, it temporarily makes me question whether I've ever experienced a "real" orgasm. Maybe there's some tremendous special feeling that my body is capable of, and I haven't even ever felt it yet? Or maybe my body isn't capable of it. Most of the time, I don't really care; I'm satisfied with what my body does.

But then I got to thinking again, maybe my orgasms are more like male orgasms than female ones. Maybe I actually am physically transgender in my body, not just in my mind. Maybe my body experiences orgasms more like a male body would than a female, except that I don't have the male genitals, so mine aren't totally like male orgasms either. And maybe my lack of sex drive is because I don't have the male genitals for producing testosterone.

But then again, maybe both males and females feel muscle contractions during their orgasms. Maybe I have muscle contractions, but they're not strong enough for me to notice.

shake, squirt, spurt, splatter

Something that strikes me each time I try to get ketchup out of a ketchup bottle, is how odd it is that with all the amazing and useful inventions which humanity has come up with over time, that we still don't have a good container for dispensing ketchup... or at least not one in which ketchup is regularly sold. I suppose the pump-action ones seen in some fast food restaurants work pretty well.

names, continued

2 more names I might potentially consider for myself:

Kyle - I've always liked this name. It's even sort of the name of me in one of my fantasies (I never decided if it was my character's real name, or if the character only said it was his name because he didn't want to disclose his real name). But the original meaning ("narrow, straight") is unappealing.

Galen - This name sort of makes me think of Druids and Rangers and such. It's meaning is "healer; tranquil", which is okay, I suppose.