buying furniture

Besides the other issues I have with acquiring furniture (such as, Do I really want to own more large, heavy things? Is it too heavy to move on my own? Is it both aesthetically pleasing and functional?)

... I also feel somewhat guilty about it. Back in the past, I'd read articles and see TV shows about illegal logging in places like Brazil and Indonesia, and the destruction of forests and habitats, and how a lot of all that is fueled by the demand for wood in countries like the U.S. I try to avoid reading and watching about that kind of stuff nowadays, because it depresses me, but I'm fairly sure it is still happening.

I have not been able to find any furniture which is certified as being from sustainably managed forests, for sale locally. If I did find any, I doubt it would just so happen to also be furniture of the type I am looking for, and which I find aesthetically pleasing.

So even when I find pretty furniture, and I buy it, and I feel excited and happy to have found and acquired it, I also feel guilty, not knowing where the wood that was used to make the furniture came from, and what bad things I may be indirectly supporting by my purchase.

Heck, even if I knew the wood came from a sustainably logged and ethically managed forest, I might still feel some guilt... I mean, if I saw the actual trees that were going to be cut down to build my furniture, I'd probably feel bad for causing the killing of the trees. It's sort of like why I became vegetarian - I didn't want to kill animals for food, nor did I want to have other people do the killing for me. Except that with furniture, I am still willing to let other people do the killing for me... sort of.

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This webpage lists many sites selling interesting alternative clothing:
http://www.mensfashionfreedom.org/shop_readymade.htm

aversion to change

I really don't deal so well with change, it seems. I used to think of myself as a rather creative and artistic person. But considering how rarely I change my computer's desktop background, or my website layout, or the look of my LJ page, one might conclude I'm not.

When first setting something up, I like to tinker around a lot and try out all the options. But once I find the options I like best, I tend to stick with them. I don't feel much need to waste time changing things again, just for the sake of change.

When I switched over to the S2 styles, instead of opting for a totally new look for my LJ, I tried to find one which was similar to my previous style, and then I customized the colors to be similar to how they were before. But I was bothered by the Tags section being shown at the top of the entries, which I was not used to.

So then I tried some different styles which had the Tags at the bottom of the entries.... but I still tried customizing those styles to make them look in all other respects like my previous style... and this did not work out. So I switched back to the first style I had selected, because it looks better to me. It's nice and centered, and has nice colorful borders, and has the dates in a nice format.

I've always centered my journal entries, ever since I've started doing online journal entries, way back in... 1998?. It looks good to me that way. Other ways look nice too, but they just don't seem *right* for my own journal. Why am that way? Why am I not able to choose a completely different look, and feel good about it?

I am that way in regards to other things too. Not all the time, but often. When I shop for a replacement for something that has broken, I think of all the good features that the broken item had, and try to find a new item with those same features. If I don't find an item with the same features, I feel disgruntled, even though the available items may have other additional good features.