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Tuesday, October 20th, 2009 07:50 amI hit myself on the head again yesterday at work. While washing my hair this morning, I noticed it was tender and bruised feeling in that spot. But at least it isn't swollen. If anyone else hit me that hard, I'd have grounds to charge them with assault. I really need to stop doing that.
In those moments of rage or intense frustration, it feels like the universe is taunting me; like a personal affront to me by the inexplicable dynamics of existence, instead of just being a badly coded website which is hogging my CPU and making my computer and browser slow to respond, or instead of it being a medicine bottle so well designed to make it hard for youngsters to open, that it's damn hard for me to get open too.
I think I end up hitting myself at work instead of venting my rage in other physical ways, because hitting myself doesn't make much noise. Hitting something else would make noise and be noticeable. Hitting something else might hurt my knuckles. My seat cushion would be the best thing to hit, if I absolutely had to hit something. But that would still make some noise, plus I'd have to stand up and crouch down in an awkward position in order to do it.
In those moments of rage or intense frustration, it feels like the universe is taunting me; like a personal affront to me by the inexplicable dynamics of existence, instead of just being a badly coded website which is hogging my CPU and making my computer and browser slow to respond, or instead of it being a medicine bottle so well designed to make it hard for youngsters to open, that it's damn hard for me to get open too.
I think I end up hitting myself at work instead of venting my rage in other physical ways, because hitting myself doesn't make much noise. Hitting something else would make noise and be noticeable. Hitting something else might hurt my knuckles. My seat cushion would be the best thing to hit, if I absolutely had to hit something. But that would still make some noise, plus I'd have to stand up and crouch down in an awkward position in order to do it.