body modify

[darkoshi]

today is one of those days
that seriously makes me consider
looking into the technicalities of breast-removal surgery.

other days, i may think
what difference does it make,
an eternal minor annoyance to live with.
what difference does it make,
when i know who i am underneath it all.
what difference does it make,
since i'll never be with anyone else anyway.
maybe some annoyances you're just supposed to live with.

but this is my life.
why shouldn't i make it better?

i wasn't born in the wrong body.
i was born in the right one,
but then it grew wrong.
men get to have their foreskins
removed when they're still babies.
why shouldn't i have my breasts removed?
[okay. baby boys don't "get" to have them removed.
those that are, are altered without any say in the matter.]
i didn't have any say in the matter
of these breasts growing, either.
but i'm old enough to choose.
and we have the technology.

and if i ever become sexually active with a chap
(perish the thought! bloody damn unlikely at this point),
you betcha i'm gonna get them tubes tied, or whatever.
don't want to risk getting pregnant, no way, no.
heh. someone getting close to me,
and i say "hold on just a little while.
let me go have this surgery
and wait the x months til it heals.
then we can do it again."
but i'd have to find out that real sex was enjoyable
before doing something like that.