happiness/content/discontent...

[darkoshi]

I had some interesting thoughts last month on
happiness and such.

by that one definition,
enthusiasm, excitement, expectation...
it might seem that i am currently happy? odd, it doesn't really feel that way... i do feel those things right now, but in a muted fashion... surely it's not in my nature to admit to being truly excited about anything... and it can all come tumbling apart so easily... a few moments, a few days...