like trying to learn to speak without being able to hear

like trying to learn to ride a bike without having a bike
like trying to learn to swim without a body of water

i believe in the possibility of magic

i mentally envisioned a magical bug-repellant shield around me.
a golden shield...
wavering between intentions of warm calm, invisible barrier, don't tread on me, and unwelcomeness...

like trying to learn magic without...

finding ants crawling on me an hour after i've come back inside is somewhat annoying

in the 5th grade, my magic-shield visualizations were rather... (compulsive?) it was something i did during recess... while leaning against the fencepost, reading my books. bright yellow-green barrier, barrier, barrier. repelling magical attacks... shielding... brown, yellow, red, purple shields, varying in intensity. invisible to regular vision. back when star wars was fun and light-sabers were magic...