![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
when people disapprove of you... well, it's pretty bad, but at least you can react to it.
but when people just don't seem to care at all, positive or negative, it makes you feel like you're nothing. even though you know you're something. or you think you're something... you may as well be nothing.
and then, it makes more sense to act as if one is nothing, when dealing with other people, because it hurts less that way... at least when one is being nothing, it is logical for others to react to you as if you're not there. you don't have to feel hurt that they seem to ignore you... (even though that is most likely going in the wrong direction... perhaps one should venture further outside of one's shell instead of withdrawing deeper inside...)
but when people just don't seem to care at all, positive or negative, it makes you feel like you're nothing. even though you know you're something. or you think you're something... you may as well be nothing.
and then, it makes more sense to act as if one is nothing, when dealing with other people, because it hurts less that way... at least when one is being nothing, it is logical for others to react to you as if you're not there. you don't have to feel hurt that they seem to ignore you... (even though that is most likely going in the wrong direction... perhaps one should venture further outside of one's shell instead of withdrawing deeper inside...)