Darkoshi

As someone else wrote, Spring sprung! Spring sprung! Spring sprung a rung a rung!

Asteroid!
Small asteroid to sweep closer than moon’s distance. It was at its closest a few hours ago. I tried to find out where in the sky it would be, and if it's visible to the naked eye or not, but couldn't find any mention of that. The sky is rather hazy here tonight; can only see the brightest stars anyway.

I've got a boom boom drum. Got it for my birthday a while back. It goes Boom! Boom! Boom boom boom boom...

Last week on the way to work, while stopped at a stoplight, it was breezy and I saw a cloud of yellow pollen pluming outward from the pine trees up ahead. I'm glad pollen doesn't bother me.

Baby got a cold. I accidentally poured the cold "medicine" down the drain, thinking it was water in the bottle (too thin and clear for cold syrup), already rinsed out. Then I saw that it was labelled as a homeopathic brew, and realized my likely mistake. Ooops. I told the niece about my mistake, and also about how homeopathic items aren't proven to work and are diluted and wacky. I probably could have worded it better, but that's how my spur of the moment verbal skills are.

I checked the cold syrups in my medicine cabinet, but all were labelled as not for infant use. Checking online, I read that it's not recommended to give babies any cold medicines. Maybe that's why the niece had bought something homeopathic; maybe that's the only thing available marked as safe for babies. (Because it's basically water!)

Driving to work, I continued feeling slightly bad, thinking the niece would suspect I poured it down the drain on purpose. I decided to stop by the store on the way home to get some replacement, even if the only thing I could find was another homeopathic one. But I did find some non-homeopathic remedies (though I'm not sure that one is really any more effective); they even had ibuprofen drops labelled for infants.

Spring a ding ding.

Grey's Anatomy had a genderqueer character on tonight's show, using the "they" pronouns. I was watching it with Qiao, and was inwardly pleased (they're like me!), yet didn't feel like saying anything out loud about it to Qiao. I wondered if Qiao even remembers that I don't identify as female. What difference does it make, sigh. I have a boom boom drum.

Boom a doom doom.

I don't understand main-stream sexuality, except from an outsider's perspective. I only understand it based on the media I've been exposed to, not because it makes sense to me. I don't understand why female breasts are considered sexual, but men's chests aren't. I don't understand why breasts with nipples visible are considered nude and sexual, while breasts with pasties or tassles covering the nipples aren't. I don't understand why people like sucking on nipples or penises. I don't understand why TV show characters tongue-kiss* each other so much and so often; I don't understand why people are supposedly drawn to that activity. I don't understand why having sex is supposed to be part of a relationship, and why not having sex is supposed to indicate a lack of a relationship. I'm sure it makes intrinsic sense to most other people, but it doesn't to me; it's all hear-say to me.

While thinking about pasties and tassles, the thought occurred to me, what if I guy were naked except for a pasty/tassle on the end of his penis? Would the pasty/tassle render him non-nude? heheheh....

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There seem to be a fair number of butch lesbians and butch-presenting females who are deeply offended by being referred to with male pronouns... they expect to be perceived as physically female based on the gender cues of their body, in spite of their clothing and presentation, and they interpret a male pronoun as an insult. They expect everyone to know that a masculine-presenting female still expects to be referred to with female pronouns, and that the only reason for someone to use male pronouns for them would be purposeful spite.

There are also a lot of transgendered people who are deeply offended by being referred to with a pronoun which doesn't match their clothing and presentation. They expect to be perceived and treated as the gender which matches their presentation, regardless of the gender cues of their body. They may interpret being referred to with the other pronoun as purposeful spite. They expect everyone to know that a person expects to be referred to with the pronoun which matches their gender presentation.

I think there's more emotional pain involved for transgendered people when they are referred to by their non-preferred pronoun, as that indicates that they have failed to pass as their preferred gender, and that their internal identity and self have not even been recognized. Whereas for butch females, it's more a perception of their identity and self having been recognized and belittled.

I don't think there's going to be a solution to the dichotomy of pronoun expectations any time soon.

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* edited to replace "snog" with "tongue-kiss"... To me, a "kiss" is a simple peck on the cheeks or lips, whereas "snog" sounds like faces being shoved together; noses being squished hoggish-like; mouths open and tongues shoving. But the dictionary definition of snog is "kissing and cuddling", so maybe it isn't the right word after all. But "french kiss" sounds rather outdated and childish, and "tongue-kiss" doesn't seem much more descriptive... it sounds like 2 tongues pecking each other lightly... Oh, well, whatever.

Hey, everyone, anyone - feel free to refer to me as 'zie', or 'he', or 'she', or whatever pronoun you like. I won't take offense at any of them... Or you could refer to me as 'you'. That'd work too. Of course, you probably won't be referring to me at all. But hey, hey, hey, whatever. Just thought I'd make it crystal-clear. And if you're curious about my gender, you could call me androgyne, or male, or female, or whatever. Or even neutrois, although that term doesn't seem widespread. Oh, doesn't that just drive you crazy, when someone won't tell you which specific gender they are? I don't mean to annoy anyone. But posting which gender my birth certificate says in this entry would sort of defeat the whole purpose of it now.