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So I was surfing the collarme BDSM site... and noticed for the first time the PPV video link, from which apparently they make their money, and then clicked to view the short "free sample" vid... and it was not at all my kind of thing (not that I expected it to be) - a guy flogging a naked chained and moaning female, with another naked female licking her armpit... and then both of the females bent over some rail, and the guy flogging their behinds.
Then I browsed through several pages of the forums, and read and skimmed through many threads, and found none of interest to me.
And I don't feel so good, which maybe has something to do with how I started feeling... I was still tired even after having eaten dinner... I'm about to go to bed even, and I don't usually feel like going to bed this early on a weekend except when I'm sick. Although I don't feel sick.
But, after browsing through all those posts... and thinking back on the vid again... I mean, get real. None of those people are like me, or into what I'd be into. The doms are into naked female bodies and they like playing because they like looking at naked female asses and naked female breasts! And because they like naked females sucking their cock! WTF am I doing on this site? WTF am I doing at all... And why do I have to have this damn female body and these damn naked female breasts? Even the people I've been involved with - even though they were able to affect me in good ways for a while - they're really just like those guys. They're really mainly just into naked females and sex. WTH does this have to do with what I want? WTH do I want?
Good night. Just felt like writing down that reaction so that I can ponder it later on when I'm not feeling quite this way.
Then I browsed through several pages of the forums, and read and skimmed through many threads, and found none of interest to me.
And I don't feel so good, which maybe has something to do with how I started feeling... I was still tired even after having eaten dinner... I'm about to go to bed even, and I don't usually feel like going to bed this early on a weekend except when I'm sick. Although I don't feel sick.
But, after browsing through all those posts... and thinking back on the vid again... I mean, get real. None of those people are like me, or into what I'd be into. The doms are into naked female bodies and they like playing because they like looking at naked female asses and naked female breasts! And because they like naked females sucking their cock! WTF am I doing on this site? WTF am I doing at all... And why do I have to have this damn female body and these damn naked female breasts? Even the people I've been involved with - even though they were able to affect me in good ways for a while - they're really just like those guys. They're really mainly just into naked females and sex. WTH does this have to do with what I want? WTH do I want?
Good night. Just felt like writing down that reaction so that I can ponder it later on when I'm not feeling quite this way.