downsideupsidedown

well.
on the downside, just found out mybravenet.com hosting has been terminated, and so my old site is gone. guess i'll put it on the same server as my new site then.

hope i can get google to re-index my cursewords page. hey, it must have a pretty good ranking. search on "curse words", and it's on the first page of results. heh. doesn't look like my duel of the fates page is even indexed anymore though. maybe because i didn't update it in such a long time, or because the song is old now and people don't search for it much anymore.

on the upside, i've been friended. and thru a link of theirs, i rediscovered an alexander key fanpage which i had lost track of a while back, since my link to it had become obsolete. cool.

oh, and someone gave me the gift of a yahoo-group. made me moderator. hee! i'm a moderator! i've got the Power! but it's not really a real group. more of a ploy. but i suppose it could become a real group. perhaps.

insomnia

can't sleep

had i known sleep would be so difficult, might have gone to bed earlier. but one never knows. less than 2 hours of dreaming. then awake. with an overactive heartbeat beating. a mind pacing back and forth in its skull. thump. thump. thump. awake. awake. awake. valerian drops seem no help. thump. thump. awake. awake.

3 hours after awakening, i give up. get up, open the curtains. sun shines in. i hang 2 small mirrorballs, the pink glass mobile, and the spiky mobile in the window. pretty brights of light twist and twirl around me. i am awake.

i've joined a local bdsm munch-type group on yahoo. yesterday i signed up for an orientation meeting. perhaps that is the reason. perhaps it was too much sugary food eaten late at night. perhaps the need for some early morning sunshine. i do not feel tired. thump. thump. thump. at least i do not feel tired.

why now?

or maybe... the valerian drops... just take 5 hrs. to start working....

finally. a cup o' tea?

well. i think i've got parts 1 thru 5 of my Tee and the Lore of Vreefalingi story about as good as i can get them. i'm sure they could be a lot better, but I'm not a Creative Writing major, so there.

so if you want to see what kind of (strange, ridiculous?) sex scenes can be penned by a mostly asexual virgin androgyne with bdsm interests... well, you could go straight to parts 4 and 5. of course, then you'd miss the good whipping scene and all.

so now I can finally get working on editing part 6, where Vreefalingi finally comes into play. not to mention Misha, oh so *wonderful* Misha. who has the *good* sex scenes. and then there's Tejel, who does the *bad*good* sex thing. well, i don't know if i'll want to post that.