Darkoshi

Apparently, nipples may retain sensation and even the ability to become erect, after top surgery. Sometimes they do, and sometimes not. The nipples are more likely to retain sensation if the "pedicle" technique is used during the surgery.

Now I'm curious about how or if the actual nipple can be made smaller during surgery. Not just the areola - that sounds easy to make smaller. But the actual bumpy part. Guys don't have as big bumpy parts as females, so surely FTMs would want their bumps smaller too, not just the areolas. If they still have the bumps, that is. If there's no erect tissue, there's no bumps, I guess.

I don't like it when my bumps are visible through my shirts. That is one reason I wear bras or vests or shirts with pockets. Even if I had top surgery, if my bumps were still prominent, I might still not be comfortable wearing thin shirts in public because of it.

Retaining sensation seems better than losing it, even though I don't have any erogenous sensations in that area. And retaining erectibility seems desirable, because I'm used to it. But I guess either outcome has its pros and cons.

update:
Just reading about top surgery and looking at photos has been making my nipples ache somewhat like they do in very cold weather. At times like this, I think that it might be preferable to lose sensation in them.

Why am I so goddamn cold! The thermostat says 68 degrees, and it's been rising all day, from 63, and I didn't feel cold when I got up this morning, but I've been feeling colder and colder ever since! Obviously antihistamines must not make one feel warm since I took one of those pills today; it must be tylenol that helps; but it doesn't seem right to take a pain-reliever like tylenol when one isn't in pain, just freezing. Even my nipples were aching from the cold earlier. I didn't realize the antihistamine was going to make me drowsy, either. I wanted to get things done today, and now it's already late afternoon, and I feel like I haven't gotten anything done yet.

This last week or so here, our deciduous trees here have gone through their color-change. Bright oranges, reds, yellows.

I flipped through the TV channels at Forestfen's for a couple hours yesterday, thinking I'd enjoy the chance to watch all the satellite channels for a change. But the only interesting things on were about the kind of things that depress me.... the history of the Ku Klux Klan, an 80s show on the African Liberation movement, a movie about some British inner-city boy with a mean brother raising a wild bird (ok, that one might not have been totally depressing, but I only saw bits and snatches of it), Iraq.... oh, one thing that wasn't depressing but rather odd/amusing, a Cops show where the cop pulled over a car with 2 good-looking women clad only in bikinis, and the driver was insisting that she didn't have the time to get a ticket and go to traffic court because she was getting a boob job done in 4 days.

Anyway, I didn't find anything good enough to watch, to make me feel that I ought to go ahead and sign up for cable or satellite TV at my house. Yet anyway. I think it would be interesting to sign up for some international stuff, but that would be expensive. And still not uplifting.