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Hey, I've already met one more wonderful person. ... He seems nice, intelligent, and interesting, and he's a Dom. Although he lives somewhat farther away than would be convenient, and I'm not sure if we would be sexually compatible. But, cool. Who knows?
We were chatting about some things, and I realized that I'm currently in an in-between state... a state of uncertainty about what I want or don't want, at least sexually, in relationships with other people. Because I haven't had enough experience yet with doing sexual things with other people, to know if that is something I could enjoy at all, or not. If I were certain, I could just state from the outset that I was looking for someone who didn't want sex at all. Or I could state that I don't mind sex, but that it isn't at all enjoyable for me, by itself. Or if it turns out that I could enjoy sex, then it wouldn't be much of an issue. But as it is, I'm still not sure, and that makes me feel trepidation. And I'm really not going to be sure, until I actually try things out with people... with various people... until I have enough real experience to have such certainty.
We were chatting about some things, and I realized that I'm currently in an in-between state... a state of uncertainty about what I want or don't want, at least sexually, in relationships with other people. Because I haven't had enough experience yet with doing sexual things with other people, to know if that is something I could enjoy at all, or not. If I were certain, I could just state from the outset that I was looking for someone who didn't want sex at all. Or I could state that I don't mind sex, but that it isn't at all enjoyable for me, by itself. Or if it turns out that I could enjoy sex, then it wouldn't be much of an issue. But as it is, I'm still not sure, and that makes me feel trepidation. And I'm really not going to be sure, until I actually try things out with people... with various people... until I have enough real experience to have such certainty.
