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I was able to get my flogger vid to upload, after converting its format:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq_74aEpAik
Also recorded a couple short vids this evening of just of me talking, not that I have much of anything to say, but I wanted to upload something other than me dancing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJAifh3LfdU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mAOcNhWAn0
I have started reading a book, "What Becomes You", written by a friend of someone on my LJ friends list. So far, I have been relating with much of the author's description of their childhood. When I was a kid, I didn't really expect to grow up to be a woman... I don't remember what I expected, but...
Well actually I do remember one imagination I had when I was a kid, it was of me trying to order food at a fast food restaurant for a bunch of kids (mine, I suppose) including at least one set of identical twins, and trying to make sure that each kid was given a choice as to what they wanted to get (and how complicated that was)... although part of this imagination, perhaps the more significant part, was of me being one of those blond-haired twins.
So, if I partially imagined myself as the mother (?) of those kids, does that mean I imagined myself as a woman? I don't remember. Maybe I imagined I had adopted them. Or maybe I wasn't ever the adult in this imagination, maybe I was always one of the kids... memory is so subjective and uncertain, sigh.
Then, there was another imagination, of me as an adult in a house. It was next to a cornfield. I was a farmer, and grew corn. And there was another imagination, of me being a postman... postal carrier.. delivering mail. These imaginations were part of trying to figure out what job I might possibly want to do when I grew up, since adults had to have jobs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq_74aEpAik
Also recorded a couple short vids this evening of just of me talking, not that I have much of anything to say, but I wanted to upload something other than me dancing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJAifh3LfdU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mAOcNhWAn0
I have started reading a book, "What Becomes You", written by a friend of someone on my LJ friends list. So far, I have been relating with much of the author's description of their childhood. When I was a kid, I didn't really expect to grow up to be a woman... I don't remember what I expected, but...
Well actually I do remember one imagination I had when I was a kid, it was of me trying to order food at a fast food restaurant for a bunch of kids (mine, I suppose) including at least one set of identical twins, and trying to make sure that each kid was given a choice as to what they wanted to get (and how complicated that was)... although part of this imagination, perhaps the more significant part, was of me being one of those blond-haired twins.
So, if I partially imagined myself as the mother (?) of those kids, does that mean I imagined myself as a woman? I don't remember. Maybe I imagined I had adopted them. Or maybe I wasn't ever the adult in this imagination, maybe I was always one of the kids... memory is so subjective and uncertain, sigh.
Then, there was another imagination, of me as an adult in a house. It was next to a cornfield. I was a farmer, and grew corn. And there was another imagination, of me being a postman... postal carrier.. delivering mail. These imaginations were part of trying to figure out what job I might possibly want to do when I grew up, since adults had to have jobs.
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Sunday, February 17th, 2008 12:03 am1 year ago, I was making two floggers. Gosh, how can that have just been one year ago?
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Tuesday, February 13th, 2007 07:20 amI ordered some black and red nylon twine for use in making the floggers' handles. The only online site I was able to find that had these items for sale was a site specializing in materials for making rosaries. It just now strikes me how very ironic that is... subverting the holy purpose of the twine for use in making perverted kinky toys!
But then again, Catholicism and flagellation aren't exactly strangers with each other. And the website's apparent owning company seems to specialize in products for fishing nets and such.
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On an unrelated note, why do my shirts seem to accumulate lint on the back inside part of the collar? My neck doesn't give off lint. So where does it come from?
But then again, Catholicism and flagellation aren't exactly strangers with each other. And the website's apparent owning company seems to specialize in products for fishing nets and such.
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On an unrelated note, why do my shirts seem to accumulate lint on the back inside part of the collar? My neck doesn't give off lint. So where does it come from?
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Saturday, February 10th, 2007 06:41 pmI've been asked to make someone a couple of rope floggers. While doing a search for black rope, I came across some things of interest:
- Glo-rope - glow-in-the-dark rope. I bet this would look cool for bondage - tying someone up and then turning the lights out and having them glow.
- Rope quirts. I didn't know that some quirts are made just out of rope, without leather. It doesn't seem like they would feel the same though. Not that I've felt either. Although I have felt a crop. I get crops and quirts mixed up.
- My reaction to something - I came across a page with pix of a naked person tied up in extreme positions, doing oral sex on a male in those positions, being fucked in those positions... none of that particularly bothered me, and even aroused my interest somewhat - but then I glance at a pic, where the top has his face pressed into the person's nether regions (presumably doing oral sex), and my reaction to that one is, "Ewwww!!!!".
It used to be, my reaction to all of those pix would have been like that.
- Glo-rope - glow-in-the-dark rope. I bet this would look cool for bondage - tying someone up and then turning the lights out and having them glow.
- Rope quirts. I didn't know that some quirts are made just out of rope, without leather. It doesn't seem like they would feel the same though. Not that I've felt either. Although I have felt a crop. I get crops and quirts mixed up.
- My reaction to something - I came across a page with pix of a naked person tied up in extreme positions, doing oral sex on a male in those positions, being fucked in those positions... none of that particularly bothered me, and even aroused my interest somewhat - but then I glance at a pic, where the top has his face pressed into the person's nether regions (presumably doing oral sex), and my reaction to that one is, "Ewwww!!!!".
It used to be, my reaction to all of those pix would have been like that.
rope floggers
Monday, July 10th, 2006 07:48 pmI made myself a rope flogger a few years ago, and when I was making it, I thought the rope I had gotten for it wasn't a very good choice. The rope has a solid core, making it somewhat stiff, and a slippery braided outer sheath which caused the knots to come undone easily. I eventually had to sew the end knots with thread to keep them from unravelling.
So I thought that a braided rope without the solid core would surely be better. But since then, I've made a couple other floggers with other rope like that, and they don't feel as good. Using my original flogger on myself, it's like an invigorating massage. It has this special SNAP-THUMP-THUMP-THUMP that feels very nice. The others are similar, but you have to swing them harder to get the same force of impact, and even then, they still don't feel quite the same. I guess the stiffness of the original rope is actually a good thing, and the solid core seems to make it heavier and more powerful than other similarly sized rope.
Note to self: Rope with solid core = Braided Nylon. 100% mixed fibers: Nylon, Polyester. 5/16". Working load limit 192 lb.
Hmmm... interesting observation. I noticed that my original flogger has the knots closer to the ends of the rope. So on the most recent flogger I made, I've just now cut its ends shorter so there's less fluffy unravelled rope after the knots, and that makes the impact feel quite a bit better. Still not quite the same as the original, but closer.
So I thought that a braided rope without the solid core would surely be better. But since then, I've made a couple other floggers with other rope like that, and they don't feel as good. Using my original flogger on myself, it's like an invigorating massage. It has this special SNAP-THUMP-THUMP-THUMP that feels very nice. The others are similar, but you have to swing them harder to get the same force of impact, and even then, they still don't feel quite the same. I guess the stiffness of the original rope is actually a good thing, and the solid core seems to make it heavier and more powerful than other similarly sized rope.
Note to self: Rope with solid core = Braided Nylon. 100% mixed fibers: Nylon, Polyester. 5/16". Working load limit 192 lb.
Hmmm... interesting observation. I noticed that my original flogger has the knots closer to the ends of the rope. So on the most recent flogger I made, I've just now cut its ends shorter so there's less fluffy unravelled rope after the knots, and that makes the impact feel quite a bit better. Still not quite the same as the original, but closer.
