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I wasn't expecting a video about reaching a million subscribers to have a deep, emotionally impacting message.

Video title: ONE MILLION SUBSCRIBERS - Defining success
Posted by: Ren
Date posted: Jul 28, 2023

I didn't care for Ren's last song/video, "Murderer"; I found it disturbing. It would be unusual if I liked every single song an artist released. But I am still amazed by his talent. If you're new to Ren, please watch some of his other videos first.

I am unhappy.
I don't know what I want.
I can't think of anything I would want.

I don't know what would make me feel good.
I can think of things that would make me feel bad, but not good.

I don't think BDSM can make me feel good anymore.
Does that imply it made me feel good in the past?

Short little spikes of feeling good.

But I don't think it can do that anymore.

My mind can't create the good feeling.

I went for a walk in Georgia once.
And scratched my sign by a trickle of water.

I went for a walk in Massachusetts,
and cried in the rain.
Or was it snow?

I went for a walk in the desert once,
but it is gone.

I don't feel about this
like I feel I should feel.

I don't like penises and scrotums and vulvas.
I still don't like them.

Maybe tonight I'll dream
a wonderful feeling.