Darkoshi

Thought Experiment:

What if "men" were physically female, and "women" were physically male?

The "men", being female, would be the ones who got pregnant, but the male "women" would be the ones who spent more time with the children after their birth. The male women (the mothers) would be seen as the more nurturing parent.
Female fathers and male mothers.

The heterosexual female men would be sexually attracted to the women's flat chests and nipples - those would be considered sexy and a major turn on, whereas the men's breasts would be considered plain/utilitarian. The women's dicks and balls would also be considered sexy and a turn on for the men.

It would be considered nudity to display a woman's bare (often hairy) flat chest,
but it wouldn't be considered nudity for men to go topless and to display their breasts.

The accepted fashion for the male women would include colorful flowery dresses, skirts, jewelry and make-up. The women could also choose to wear pants and t-shirts, or most any other item.

The accepted fashion for the female men would include pants, suits and ties, shorts and t-shirts. Men's fashion choices would be much more limited than the women's, and any overstepping of the fashion rules would be met by ridicule, shock, hostility, and/or suspicion of homosexuality. However, most men wouldn't even think of overstepping the rules, due to how well those rules had been impressed upon them as they were growing up. They've been taught to think that they would look silly, ugly, or not "manly" in women's clothing.

The female men might have a higher sex drive in general than the women, and there would be a lot of sexually suggestive entertainment and porn produced which was geared towards the females.
There would be cultural/social expectations for the male women to remain chaste and to not have a lot of sexual partners. It would be more socially acceptable and expected for the female men to sleep around, than the male women.

The female men would be seen as strong and tough, even though they are on average physically smaller than the other sex. Culturally, it seems natural for them to be the ones who get pregnant and go through the hardships of childbirth, since they are the stronger sex.
The male women would be seen as physically and emotionally weaker, as well as more social and chatty.

The female men would tend to be more aggressive than the male women, and in groups, these men would tend to be loud and boasting. There would be stereotypes that the female men loved sports, hunting, drinking beer, and sex. There would be other stereotypes that the female men were more likely to be geeky and into computers and video games, than the male women.

The main characters of most movies would be female, and it would be relatively rare to have more than single male character in a movie, and even then the males' main role would be sexual and/or as a crime victim for the female to "save".

There would be stereotypes that the male women tend to care about fashion, romance, and touchy-feely type stuff. There would be stereotypes of them being sly, deceptive, and manipulative, as well as stereotypes of them being less intelligent than the females.

Some of the stereotypes might even supposedly be based on measurable average differences between the sexes.

In the past, many of the male women would have been stay-at-home moms, although nowadays most of them are in the workplace, even though they don't earn on average as much as the men.

The male women would be more likely to be victims of domestic violence.
The male women would have a high likelihood of being sexually assaulted during their lifetimes, yet society would often blame them for the assaults, while the female perpetrators would rarely be prosecuted or convicted.

There would be female gay men who were attracted to other females.
There would be male lesbian women who were attracted to other males.
There would be transgendered people who were born physically male, but felt more like a man than a woman.
There would be transgendered people who were born physically female, but felt more like a woman than a man.
These groups would face a lot of hatred, intolerance, and discrimination from much of society.

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In a world/society like that, given your current sex, where would you feel you fit in, gender-wise?

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I think I would feel in-between, as I do in this world/society. I wouldn't particularly identify with either gender. I still would prefer to have a flat chest and not menstruate and all that... although in terms of getting surgery, the transition from being able to go topless in public to having to cover up would be a nuisance.

I was thinking today while walking, that a brain works differently than a computer. A computer, as I envision it, is a single processor, following a bunch of instructions one by one (or a set of processors, nowadays). A processor can switch between threads, but it is still just doing one of them at a time. It's not that simple, but that's how I usually think of it.
But different parts of a brain are working at the same time, parallel, separately. One part is keeping my heart beating - I can't even control that part. One part is keeping me breathing - I have limited control over that part. Other parts are doing things I'm not aware of. When I go for a walk, a part of my brain is controlling the physical aspects of making my body walk, and a part is directing which direction I walk. I have control over these parts, but for the most part I don't have to consciously think about them. Parts of my brain are processing sensory inputs. Some inputs are flagged as unusual, and that may attract the attention of my conscious mind. My conscious mind is sort of like a computer processor - it can really only pay attention to one thing at a time, or it may pay attention to several things by switching between them, one by one.
And yet there are all these other parts of my brain working at the same time... the part right now, which is making my fingers move to type these words in response to my conscious thoughts.

Meditation is not-thinking (as I think of it :).
When I meditate, I try to stop thinking thoughts... I stop thinking words... I may reduce sensory input by closing my eyes and going somewhere relatively quiet. But my brain is still working... still receiving various sensory input. Meditation is not paying attention to those inputs, or not letting those inputs trigger the conscious mind into thinking words. (which goes back to that other question - What are thoughts without words; are they still "thoughts"?) And yet, apparently, meditation still involves paying attention to something... receiving some kind of input... as it is supposed to result in one feeling like something other than a dead rock. Turning off one part of the brain perhaps, but not others. Certainly not all parts, as one still needs to breath, and the heart still needs to beat, and one needs to be open enough to be able to sense the wonder of existence.

I wish there were someone wise enough to tell me what the meanings beneath my words, thoughts, and emotions are. Because I can't figure myself out a lot of the time. I experience thoughts and feelings, and I try to make sense of them, and it seems not much different from trying to make sense of someone else. I try to come up with plausible, logical explanations for my thoughts and feelings... explanations for what I'm feeling and why... and when I have done so, that becomes my momentary "truth", my momentary understanding of myself. I think I've figured myself out, until something else makes me question my previous conclusions. But my understanding of myself isn't necessarily any more accurate than my understanding of anyone else.