belief and subjective reality

If you believe in something, it is real to you.
(Whether it is real to others is unimportant, it's your reality that matters to you.)
Therefore, you can make anything become real in your world, if only you can figure out how to believe in it.

Anything can cease being real, if you stop believing in it.

You can create a God by believing in it. You are a god yourself in that way - you have the power to create something out of nothing. *If* you can figure out how to consistently believe in it.


But if the thought only comes from within, how can one believe in it?

I want my god to be real without my having to create zir myself. I want my god to be real regardless of any belief. But if I don't believe in zir, then ze is not real to me.

Unless of course, I experience indication of zir reality, without having to imagine it up myself.

People who believe in gods seem to experience indications of their gods' reality. What makes people who don't believe, start believing? They have some kind of mystical experience, which fuels their initial belief, and then their belief fuels the rest. Unless they are skeptical, and can explain away / dismiss the original mystical experience and the rest.


I am my own higher power. I am everyone I've ever imagined and believed in.

But my god doesn't know the answers either. We're stuck in the same boat. Drifting.

dysthymia

I'm not sure I even meet the diagnosis criteria for dysthymia. The only condition I seem to strongly meet is the "hopeless" one. I don't usually have problems with sleeping or eating. I don't think I have a problem with self-esteem. Sometimes I feel fatigued or lacking energy, but not all the time. I don't have a problem concentrating, if I'm motivated to do so. Decision-making can be difficult, but I'm still able to do so; it just takes longer some times.

Another consideration is that the antidepressants I tried did not seem to have any positive effect on me.

There's one state of being, where one is very much lacking in the mental energy/motivation to do anything. Perhaps that is the symptom of depression and dysthymia, which the anti-depressant drugs help to fix.

There's another state of being, where one has mental energy and motivation to do some things, but one feels no joy in doing them. That's what I have. Perhaps the drugs don't help with that. Perhaps this state is a very common one; after all, I read about people searching for joy, happiness, purpose, and the meaning of life, all the time. Is my state the same as all those people? Or do those people already enjoy life, and they're looking for even more?

Anyway, I was discussing my state of being, in these videos.

If the videos seem a bit choppy, it's because I edited out a lot of pauses between words and sentences, to make the videos shorter.