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Just watched a short bit of a Sunday-morning church show on TV.

Christianity seems so foreign to me. Religion is so foreign. People are so foreign. How can people believe those things? How can I be on the same planet with people like that? What the heck is this WEIRD universe I am living in?

So the preacher is preaching about how God will let bad things happen to our nation because of the "decline in morality" that's been going on here. About how he will allow other nations to attack and conquer us, just like he allowed the Babylonians to conquer the Israelites. In other words, it's not just a matter of believing in your religion and living your life as you feel you should live it, while letting other people believe in what they believe and live life as they feel they should live it. No, the fact that other people aren't believing in the things you do, and acting according to your own religion's standards of morality, means bad things are going to happen to *you*. Therefore you have to change *them*, in order to save yourself. And therefore it makes perfect sense to try to pass laws based on your religion, and to treat other religions as inferior to yours. Why? Because a book says so! Because a preacher says so! Because there's this big powerful male-gendered godly being who wants us billions of puny little humans to follow the oh-so-important ridiculous instructions put down in a book he wrote and bestowed upon us a couple thousand years ago!

And the preacher says the Islam is bad because Moslems want to kill people who don't believe in their religion, while Christians are so much better than them because Christians want to convert people instead of killing them. Ahem. Yes, it's that simple. They are bad and we are good. Of course. There haven't ever been any Christians who have wanted to kill non-believers and/or impose Christianity upon others. And passing laws based on Christianity isn't *imposing* Christianity upon others. Of course not. After all, you are only doing it for their own good... you're saving them from God's deadly wrath! As well as saving yourselves from God's wrath that you let them coexist with you.

Either way, fanatical Islam and fanatical Christianity, it is the same thought process! Gah, and no, it's not that people in other countries could possibly be angry at Americans because of the inconsiderate things Americans do to people in other countries, no, that couldn't be the case, because Americans are so good. They're only angry at us because we don't follow their religion. Of course that would make sense to someone who feels the same way about other people and their own religion.

Of course, it is probably true. If people here are so weird and believe in such things, it stands to reason that people in other countries are just as weird and gullible. And so yes, there are a lot of non-Christians out there who probably want to do us harm merely because our religions are different than theirs, and because we engage in activities that they think their God opposes.

Why am I living this weird strange incomprehensible life?

Zestra

I tried out the Zestra.

The only effect it seemed to have on me was to produce a warming/heat sensation in the genitals. It did not arouse me mentally, or make me feel significantly different physically, or make it easier to orgasm (somewhat hard to gauge, since the preparations for doing this put me into a state where I orgasmed fairly quickly anyway). It did not make my orgasms feel any stronger or better than usual. It did not cause insertion of a dildo* into my vagina to feel any better than usual.

(* - how quaint; LiveJournal's spell-checker doesn't recognize "dildo" as a real word. And for that matter, it doesn't recognize "LiveJournal" either.)

Despite the website saying that Zestra is not flavored and not the best-tasting choice for oral sex, it did have a good scent and did not taste bad... it is simply an unflavored oil with hardly any taste at all. It did make my tongue tingle a little bit. I put some on my lips too, but it did not produce any sensation there.

I haven't tried any other heat-sensation producing products like the ones containing capsicum, so I can't give a comparison of this to those.

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I wish I knew what it feels like to experience a whole-body orgasm with the "fireworks" and contracting muscles bit. I wonder if I will ever experience that. It seems doubtful, since my body has never done that so far.

I think I'd probably gain more pleasure from having a good in-depth mental fantasy again like the ones I used to have, over any physical orgasm, no matter how strong. I wonder whether I will ever have any fantasies like those again.

It seems like I've heard that many females never experience orgasms, but I haven't heard as much about females who experience only "weak" orgasms like mine. I wonder how common or uncommon it is to only have the physical sensations which I have. And I wonder if males experience orgasms along a continuum from weak to strong too; in other words if some guys only experience weak orgasms (or none at all), while some guys only experience strong ones.